I can see the timeline now so clearly.
A way in which you cannot see when you are in the midst of a major life transition.
A transition in which you have longed for so many years that you cannot seem to remember a time when you weren’t waiting for your life to begin.
Thus, that time has finally arrived and so has 2021.
When I reflect back on 2020, it is not only the pandemic or the immediate circumstances of my life to which I must think of. In order to get a true sense of what has brought this relief, joy, and excitement to my being has really been the culmination of the last three years of my life.
It first began in the second half of 2018. My mother was having somewhat urgent and surprising open-heart surgery. The research and the planning to set up the successful surgery as well as her post-op care became my primary focus. I was so laser focused on her health, it became an easy excuse at the time to allow myself to be distracted from achieving my own personal goals. Or, so I thought at the time.
I have never been a person of enormous faith or that truly ever felt God had a plan for me, but as I sit here typing this (something I did not known I would be doing today) it all seems clear. The path was evident the whole time I just couldn’t see the bigger picture then. Plus, there was so much more growing and learning and even pain that I first had to endure to get to this place of clarity.
After my mother’s surgery, 2019 was a year full of her recovery milestones until my own health saga had to become the thing I was laser focused on. That continued throughout all of 2020, as I embraced (with some time and processed through my first YouTube series “My Chronic Migraine Life”)my own recovery milestones.
It is ironic that without having undergone two eye surgeries, I might not have ever really seen how those hardships in my life where the exact steps I needed to take. They have put me in a position where I am healthy, happy, and ready to actually accomplished my professional goals.
I also cannot believe the joy of hearing my fingers tap these keys as there were so many months when I was sure that this blog was no longer my passion. But every-time I have my doubts it seems I find my way back here when I least expect to. Apparently this is part of my path to happiness as well.
As I sit here and think that we are still in January and have an entire year ahead of us, I am feeling such optimism that I surprise myself.
The brand new project I am working on now (that I plan to share with the world soon) has brought me much happiness and a desire to push myself outside of my comfort zone.
Now I am manifesting all that I want and with that I am actually believing something wonderful is about to happen.