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For My 38th Birthday




I feel loved. 

Actually more than just loved. I am overcome with feelings of love, happiness, and peace. 

Feeling loved and being loved are the greatest gifts one can ever hope to receive in this world. It is that love that feels your soul and allows you to be able to love on others, thus bringing happiness and joy into someone else’s life. Love is what makes a good life possible.

This week I turned thirty-eight and while I can hardly believe my new number, I am feeling so grateful to be in THIS place in my life. 

Last year was an extremely emotional one for me as I was dealing with some serious growing pains. I learned a lot of hard lessons and in the process learned some very important things about myself. 

If I am being honest, I was a little anxious for my birthday this year. While I have always LOVED celebrating birthdays, including my own, I have felt pressure to make my day perfect. All that unnecessary pressure about what the day looks like and even where you are in your life at the moment of your birthday can take away the joy you should feel from turning another year older. 


This year I made a conscious choice to eliminate all of that b.s. I decided that where I am in this moment and who I am is a blessing. It is also where I am supposed to be. 

As I reflected back on my journey to thirty-eight, not all of it was pleasant but all of it was ONE HUNDRED PERCENT worth it. 

I have decided instead to focus solely on the love of those in my life and be willing to really receive all well wishes openly.

As I mentioned during my latest Youtube video that I posted on my actual birthday, I’m over all the negativity. I value myself, my place in this world, and the progress I have made in my life especially my vlog series I began earlier this year. 

The openness I feel now to share my story and help others is my focus. I treasure my place within my family and those handful of friends who make me and my life better. 


I can say without hesitation this is the healthiest I have been in years; a fact I never ever take for granted. My chronic migraines are in check and I am officially off ALL preventive medication! I have returned to working out which is something I had not be able to do in over ten plus years. 

The success I yearn for is within reach if only I can remember that I am already successful because I am trying.

The challenges in life are made bearable because when good things come to pass there are those who I can celebrate with. 

While these words may not truly capture all the emotions I am feeling, I know that each and every day is a new opportunity to share, educate, and appreciate. 


I spend my birthday doing exactly what made me happy. I made a caramel latte, ate a zucchini pizza, filmed a video for my channel, and then went out for dinner at a Mexican restaurant with my parents. Any one of those things would have been a challenge for me only a few years ago. But this week they were things that I reveled in.

The best part by far was taking time to respond to each message I received both on social media and those sent via texts. The icing on the cake was actually getting to speak to some cherished loved ones on the phone; something that in this day and age can be a rarity. 

I began the week with a great visit with some cousins and ended it with a trip to Philly with some others. 

To say I felt the love is an understatement but it really was all I needed.


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