With a new year comes a new start. That is the tradition we cling to. We make resolutions that we may or may not intend on keeping. We all prepare for a new beginning, a way to cleanse the slate and start over again. Depending on how the prior year went for you the more you may be looking to a year full of possibilities. I am very much in this headspace now. I want to make as many changes as I can so that I am only looking forward and not backward.
Since the beginning of the year I have been trying very hard to stay in a positive frame of mind. More importantly just staying within my feelings in and outside of my mind. If I am in a bad mood I want it to be because that’s how I feel and not because that’s what I feel projected around me. This is SO much harder than it seems. All it takes sometimes is for me to spill coffee on myself, hit traffic, or run into a rude person and my mood is ruined. Thus so is my day. It is a terrible habit but small things knock me off my game. I am trying now to breathe through it and let it roll off my shoulders. I want to focus on what I know the meaning of life to be and the things I want to be. In order to create I need to be able to feel everything in my world authentically.
When other people’s situations or problems begin to weigh on you they interfere with your true path. They can even distract you from any progress you set out to make that day. One day off your beaten path is more than enough. I have grown weary of days like that and want whatever is in my control to remain that way. This is taken a lot of effort. To stay the course and succeed with the little milestones I set for myself every day is a gigantic step in the right direction for me. I want to look back on 2015 and see a collection of 365 days like this. Realistically I know that will not be the case but it is the hope and determination to get as close to that as possible that drives me to try my hardest.
I want this to be a year of family, friends, great travel, inspirational writing, and new beginnings. I want my chronic migraine disease to be under full control and with less effort than it takes most days now. But the most important goal is to be as selfish as possible. By this I mean I want to self-preserve my emotions, my talents, resources, and strengths for the things I need to achieve. I no longer want to waste any precious time on the things that truly do not matter. Even when it comes to someone or something I love I still give too much. I need to begin saving more of me for myself. I need to do me.
Most of what we do and are able to accomplish begins with your mindset. So from now on I am going to come from Bethenny Frankel’s “A Place of Yes” and support myself one hundred percent. If that means changing my physical environment to stir the emotional changes that I need to thrive then so be it.
I still have to learn how to divide my three worlds and still feel like I am me and present in each. The way I figure it there is my day job, my personal life, and the world that exists in my head and heart. The latter is what I want to bring over to the other two parts of my life.
Figuring out how to just be who you are, how you are, where you are is the challenge.
“But I am right on top of it Rose.”
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