For My Blog's 2nd Birthday

I can hardly believe it but two years ago today I started this blog. I cannot believe it has been that long. I am so connected to it I cannot imagine a time when I existed and it did not. I have no idea what I did with my time or thoughts. I feel like I have so much to say and such a limited about of time to share it, and that’s now. God what did I do then?

I never reread posts; once they are proofed and posted I am done. The longer time goes on the more I am additament that I do not go back in time unless I need some information. I feel awkward reading thoughts of someone else, because that’s how I feel. Once I write something I feel I have shed it and am onto the next. But when you see your growth or how you would do it differently now it can feel strange. I guess I should also see it as rewarding the changes I have made in my life and in myself.

Today I reread last years birthday blog (http://thequeenoff-ckingeverything.blogspot.com/2012/03/for-my-blogs-1st-birthday.html) which I haven’t done since I posted it. Ironically I was sick this week too. Not with a sinus infection thankfully, but with one of the worst migraines of all time that have lasted two weeks now. With that illness it has left me out of commission for all things, work, sleep, even showering on a daily basis but now that I am getting my strength back I realized how much I missed my blog. It had been a couple of weeks since I posted and I was feeling that yearning in my gut to start typing. All of the topics I had planned on writing were floating through my head one after another and as I added lines to them I knew it was not time to write them just yet. I had not yet properly reflected on this anniversary so I thought I would just sit down and see what words would flow from me.

As I look through my detailed list of planned blogs I know what I want to write, day to day, week to week, from here until the last week of April right now. Dates might change of course depending on my ability to write that day but there are some that matter because of special occasions and I will have to do whatever is necessary to get it done.

What I am doing differently this year than last, is that I am writing more and more blogs ahead of time. I am not even doing it on purpose. Usually when this happens it is for a blog idea that just popped into my head and the emotions and words are streaming at such a strong speed I have to stop to write them down before my head explodes. Ordinarily I just think things through and save it in my head until the date arrives to blog about it.

Also this year I feel I am tapping into a deeper level. I am not just sharing information about where I go and why you should too. I want to also share who I am and the things and people who are important in my life. This will become an even stronger thread in 2013. I have never thought about whether or not I would blog any more. It’s not a possibility for me. Originally this might have been something I did on the side, it was only a part of my life. Now though it is my life. It is a part of my soul. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about something I want to write or edit. I am inspired by everything and my mind is constantly working. Even when I can’t function from a migraine the blog is in the back of my mind as an outlet for me to release my feelings and share helpful information with others.

I am grateful for all of my readers and supporters. I hope to continue to surprise, entertain, and wow them. I also hope to attain a larger fan base and pass the message around. It is a very powerful feeling to know that you can share your thoughts and words with the world, however small or large it may be.

So I guess what I am trying to say is that I have fully settled into my role as The Queen of F-cking Everything and there is nothing I would rather be.